Do you know what it’s like to hold a baby that doesn’t cry?
A baby that doesn’t reach for you?
A baby that doesn’t have a heartbeat?

Do you know what it’s like to blame yourself?
Or what it’s like not knowing if you could have done something sooner?

Do you know what it’s like to have everyone tell you it happened for….
a reason?

What reason would take my baby from me?

Do you know what it’s like saying ‘goodbye’ and knowing that….
it’s last time you’ll ever hold them?
Or what it’s like leaving the hospital without them?
Or what it’s like crying yourself to sleep?

Do you know what it’s like to lose a child?
What it’s like to say goodbye without ever, ever saying ‘hello?’

My Baby Was Born Silent and Still….
Parker Riley Wolfle, 03/27/2019

Love mom

Giving new meaning to this term, Stillborn Birth, my 26 year old client graciously allowed me the privilege of re-posting her emotional journey, in remembrance of the anniversary of Parker’s birth-day.  And I’m happy to report that since this trauma, my client has given birth to two sons and is now the grateful mom to three healthy boys!  In a resent text, this mother added that “some days hit harder than others,” but is still “allowing myself to grieve” as she remembers that “healing isn’t gunna be linear, (but instead is about taking) 3 steps forward and 2 steps back….;” a reality she and I often discussed, especially when others – and  herself – would question why she still needed to cry, to grieve, more than a year after Parker’s birth-day!  Healing from the loss of a child, for any reason, at any age is a challenge but this young mother has indeed risen to it as well as to any other challenge that Life leaves at her doorstep – and, yes, at the doorsteps of all of us!!  Amen.